Beware long post!
Thanks for the phone calls and the support messages.. they meant a lot. I think I was just going through a rough patch.. don't be alarmed. I was always in two minds about this blog, on one hand I wanted a space where I could privately vent and be emotional on the other hand it was a tool to keep you guys in better touch with what was going on. At times I feel I have to censor what I write but then again I don't think I should because this is the point of having a blog.
The past few days have been pretty relaxing - I've been trying to catch up on some sorely missed sleep during the semester. I basically stayed in bed all day yesterday reading the Da Vinci Code. Was an interesting book and definately not one Id usually pick up and read - but after all the hype I felt I should go and give it a shot... definately enjoyable.
Today I caught up with an very old and very dear friend. Was good to see her since she has gone over seas an its only every so often that we get to see her... Things haven't changed much have they?? She's pretty much the same - maybe a little more confedent and I think she's definately grown as a person she has become more content in her own skin which is such a fabulous sign.
One thing I have learnt from her return and other chats with old and dear friends is that I've become a little workaholic.. not the best thing and prehaps the worst thing that stems from that is my isolation of friends. Yeah people think I'm popular at uni... but I don't think I am.. people have to actually like me and want to spend time with me, not just know me... And from this I think I've lost one of my best friends.... Someone who is very very special to me, she was the one person that fully kept me going all through the hard years and I've become so out of touch, admittely this is partially because I didn't thinks she cared but I think it stems from my own selfishness. I'm sorry and I really miss her. When I was thinking of the hard times and the people who understood best what I was going through she was the first person that came to mind and its so sad that it has generated to this. If you are reading this you have no idea how much I still need you and I miss you.
Just for you.. and You do know who you are
I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but
Someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend
That you've forgiven me
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again
~Savage Garden - I don't know you anymore~
On my final note and I warned you this was long... but I'll make this as brief as possible... COME ON ROOS!!! Aussie all the way to glory!!! The world cup is live and kicking and although yesterday's match didnt go the way I planned or way it should have gone - Boys you did us proud!! I'm so proud to back such a classy team that played so well against the present world champions, you lifted and you played so well... Congrats on what you have achieved and bring on Croatia!!!
That's it from me.. again sorry so long
Yours,
Puffaloonie
Sunny came home to her favorite room
Sunny sat down in the kitchen
She opened a book and a box of tools
Sunny came home with a mission
She says days go by I'm hypnotized
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire
Light the sky and hold on tight
The world is burning down
She's out there on her own and she's alright
Sunny came home
~Shawn Colvin - Sunny Came Home~
