There are times in life when you think everything is going well as per the previous post only to have it all come crashing down, realising that maybe your happiness was only to be short lived. You forget at times the other worries you have in life and the possible heartache and pain that others go through or you might be going to go through in the next five minuites. I don't really wanna talk about it but from when I posted that last post till now things have changed and not for the better... I want to talk to someone about it only I don't think anyone would understand or care. You ask me what about my close friends? but even then they wouldn't understand whats going on... each of our lives are so different, we all expect different things and do different things and for me no one ever seems to know why I do things the way I do or why I react a certain way.
Stuff just keeps happening where the same things are brought up and the cycle continues and you just go around and around getting more angry and more frustrated - the worst thing is you physically cannot do anything about it.
I'm having a sulk and a rant and I don't want you asking me whats wrong or saying that you will understand because you wont.
yours,
Puffaloonie
Sarah Mclachlan's Full of grace aptly describes how I fee.. pulled down by the undertow...
The winter here’s cold, and bitter
It’s chilled us to the bone
We haven’t seen the sun for weeks
To long too far from home
I feel just like I’m sinking
And I claw for solid ground
I’m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go
If all of the strength and all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
Full of grace
My love
So it’s better this way, I said
Having seen this place before
Where everything we said and did
Hurts us all the more
Its just that we stayed, too long
In the same old sickly skin
I’m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go
If all of the strength
And all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
